Ramblings, Incoherent Thought and Family

It's gonna be a weird weekend. I'm excited in some ways. Seeing old friends...making new ones (like I did last night)...being in the old school (that I was really only in 1 year being the first class to graduate from there) on that old stage. To look out on that crowd like I used to and in that moment...remember when it was all I wanted to do in the world. This weekend is a reunion show of the Academy Players. The drama team from my high school. They're doing it because it's the 20th year that Mr. Schaumann has directed there and...well that does deserve SOME sort of pomp. They decided to call any and all players back to be a part of this year's musical (Les Miz). It's a true honor to be there...and when I heard about it there was NO WAY I wasn't doing it. I've written before about how I feel about High School in here. How I see that time as sort of this awkward phase in my life. How I've gone to a few 'pseudo' reunions with various groups...

Change... It's as inevitible as taxes, and sometimes just as feared. So far for me 2010 has been about change. Granted I started the ball rolling with the whole weight loss kick I'm on (which has taken a bit of a back seat in recent weeks due to Grammy and now the meeing this week)...but almost since the new year began...I've been dealing with changes. At no time in my life can I remember so many things being so on the cusp of changing. From losing my final (blood) Grandparent...to the big move to a new town...to beginning to feel like I can do MORE...it's a bit disconcerting to be sure. Ok maybe disconcerting isn't the right word...but definitely one of those things that you can see coming and the idea of it causes you to wonder how it's all gonna come out. Ya know...I'm fairly easy-going. Like my father; there isn't terribly much in my life that can 'set me off'. That isn't to say I don't care about anything...but that there's v...

I sit here tonight in my office...surrounded by boxes with most of my stuff from this small room in it...and I find myself feeling the need to write. Gram's gone...and tomorrow we start the process of saying Goodbye. It's not a subject I'm terribly good at. Saying 'see ya later' or 'have a good one'...I'm fine with. The thought that I'll be seeing that person again...intending to at that moment wish the other person farewell...with every intention of picking up where we left off...even if we never see each other for years (if at all)...I'm good at that. I have experience with. One of my best friends in the world (next to Deb) I didn't speak to regularly for almost 10 years...even through email...yet when I saw her two years ago at a college reunion it was like we never were apart. We caught up, and then just continued conversations that were left dormant for 10 years. To this day she and I speak semi-regularly and my wife ADORES her. T...

We've had her for 29 years. I keep finding myself saying that...either audibly or to myself. We've had her for 29 years. It's astounding to think about it...29 years have passed since we lost Grandpa Benson and my Grandmother has been alive without him. She remarried around the 10 year mark...to a great guy (whom I call Grandpa Carl), but she beat the odds. A lot of people say that wives tend to outlive their husbands and if they do they can be VERY productive. That's true in the way I see it around me. My wife's paternal grandmother has lasted a very long time herself...same with Gramma next door (this little italian lady who lived next door to me when we were growing up...we called her grandma next door cause...ya know...she was a Grandma's age and...well...she lived next door.). My Grandmother had an entire lifetime of life without her partner...and that's a true feat. She's sick now. Today they move her back to the home and put her on hospice......

Ya know...I love the holidays. From frigging Halloween I start thinking about Christmas. What am I gonna get Deb? What's Deb gonna get me? What's my parents gonna get me? What's my sister gonna get me? What's my friends gonna get me? You get the idea... Seriously though...I do love this time of year. Yeah it's busy. I remember back the first week of November and going through the calander and seeing what each weekend consisted of. We had PRETTY MUCH every weekend but 1 mapped out till the end of the year. When you're sitting and looking at 12 weeks of plans you start to get a little overwhelmed I think...I know I did. So here we are...10 days out. My last ten days in my early 30's...from here on in it's a race to 40 and for the life of me I can't imagine my life any different. This week alone I had a meeting last night, tonight is a meeting with Deb to see where we're at with Christmas, tomorrow is actually open, Thursday is Men's...

Ya know...I don't have a whole lot to gripe about. I sit here tonight...11:00 on a Thursday and this time tomorrow I'll be halfway through what could be the final chapter of a dream I've had for years. Doing a (what I hope is) quality radio show regularly...playing music I enjoy and being entertaining. It was always something I thought about in my mid-20's. I listened to guys like Don and Mike and occasionally Brother Wease and thought "I can do that...sure I'm weird...but I can be funny." Four years ago...I got the shot. After being a regular guest on Uncle Samoo's Zoo as the third wheel...and doing some voice calls...I got my own show. Samme handed me The Living Rock. I admit for the first year I didn't know WHAT to do with it. The show lacked focus and direction. I went in...played my chart (in no discernable order) and did some mike breaks in between. I had a few 'co-hosts'...but they didn't pan out. Rollin Joe was ok...b...

Well it happened... Last night was the big meeting...they herded us all into a room and at 7:05 PM Karey Pine got up who is the head of RIT's Student Organizations...and reminded us all to be civil to each other no matter what is said. It was at that point I knew what was coming... Well...I mean I knew it before that...the writing was on the wall. I managed to corner the program director on Friday while at the station. He was there after Hockey doing his new show "Skank On"...and when I spoke to him I asked him Man-to-man whether The Living Rock would continue. He wouldn't answer me...he looked up and to the left when I asked again and said "We haven't made any decisions yet"...a sure sign he was lying and I knew then. However I still had hope and last night the hope was dashed. The Living Rock is one of the cut shows by WITR. Along with Weathered Steel, Uncle Samoo's Zoo, Histories, Axecalibur, and Jeff and Jeff (However as of this morning...I un...