Late Night Rambling...
Ya know...Patch Saturday is kinda like paying bills...
It comes once a month
Involves taking resources I don't have
I don't necessarilly see any REAL return from the investment.
I know it's important to patch servers...I mean if we didn't it would go badly. I knew more than one guy who lost his job in the early 00's when Blaster/Netsky hit when Microsoft released that it could have been avoided should they have applied patches.
It's leading me to think about the direction of my life. Ya know...I love my job. Computers were something I was always good at but just didn't spend time with till after College when I decided I wasn't going to pursue performing. I fell into it. Became good at it, and really did grow to like it. I like fixing things...making them work. Helping people understand something they didn't.
However as time has gone on I've been growing more restless. I'm not saying I'm leaving my job. UU is great. Working from home is nice. Working in shorts REALLY nice. No traffic no issues getting up 10 minutes before I'm at my desk..ALL GOOD. However...as I'm growing older I'm seeing things differently. It comes down to one thought I've had the last 8 years actually.
I'm doing what I can...I'm not sure I'm doing what I should.
It's an interesting idea. Looking at my life...I've been blessed. I have a great wife, an innate talent to sing, an apparent aptitude for computers, an ability to at least sound coherent when writing, an ability to poke fun at myself and an ability to make others smile. This isn't ego...but rather looking at my tools. When thinking about career changes...it's imperitive that you DO that. If you don't you're liable to chase after something you don't have an ability to do.
Likewise, I see my faults. I'm somewhat immature at times, given to apathy, insecure when it comes to relating to people, feeling like I'm always bothering those around me, somewhat annoying and at times not sure how to be a friend to those around me. I can be a tad disorganized...and at times can't focus on what I'm doing. I'm quick to act in a crisis...but not necessarily to THINK about a plan first. I improvise and sometimes it works...and other times I cause bigger problems.
So with that in mind...I wonder what I should be doing? What is my life's work? What do I do? How do I get there? What will set me up to succeed? Can I as the head of my household, and primary bread-winner AFFORD the luxury of trying to find my life's work? All tough questions.
So I pray...
I look for direction. It may be I"m where I should be. It's definitely better than where I've been. I provide for my wife. I am a good person..with a good head on his shoulders. Strong morals, good friends (both old and new), and an amazing wife. By anyone's standards...I've been a success. Were I to go to my heavenly home tomorrow...my life here hasn't been wasted.
Yet this week I was part of a class where they said you should ENJOY your job...and do what you love because you're going to need to enjoy work to make the most of it. It got me thinking.
This isn't a "I hate my job" blog...or even a directionless blog. I mean I"m in a good gig...with a solid future. If I do nothing and just stay current with technology...I can probably go job to job for the rest of my life...retire at 60 and then just enjoy life. However...there's a part of me that thinks that's a wasted life. I wonder if that is truly what I'm meant to do.
So I pray and I continue to look...which is probably all any of us can do. Just knowing that there may be a change coming is a good start. I can 'prepare my fields for rain'...and start thinking about next steps...if any.
Which is really kinda cool...
Thanks for reading;
It comes once a month
Involves taking resources I don't have
I don't necessarilly see any REAL return from the investment.
I know it's important to patch servers...I mean if we didn't it would go badly. I knew more than one guy who lost his job in the early 00's when Blaster/Netsky hit when Microsoft released that it could have been avoided should they have applied patches.
It's leading me to think about the direction of my life. Ya know...I love my job. Computers were something I was always good at but just didn't spend time with till after College when I decided I wasn't going to pursue performing. I fell into it. Became good at it, and really did grow to like it. I like fixing things...making them work. Helping people understand something they didn't.
However as time has gone on I've been growing more restless. I'm not saying I'm leaving my job. UU is great. Working from home is nice. Working in shorts REALLY nice. No traffic no issues getting up 10 minutes before I'm at my desk..ALL GOOD. However...as I'm growing older I'm seeing things differently. It comes down to one thought I've had the last 8 years actually.
I'm doing what I can...I'm not sure I'm doing what I should.
It's an interesting idea. Looking at my life...I've been blessed. I have a great wife, an innate talent to sing, an apparent aptitude for computers, an ability to at least sound coherent when writing, an ability to poke fun at myself and an ability to make others smile. This isn't ego...but rather looking at my tools. When thinking about career changes...it's imperitive that you DO that. If you don't you're liable to chase after something you don't have an ability to do.
Likewise, I see my faults. I'm somewhat immature at times, given to apathy, insecure when it comes to relating to people, feeling like I'm always bothering those around me, somewhat annoying and at times not sure how to be a friend to those around me. I can be a tad disorganized...and at times can't focus on what I'm doing. I'm quick to act in a crisis...but not necessarily to THINK about a plan first. I improvise and sometimes it works...and other times I cause bigger problems.
So with that in mind...I wonder what I should be doing? What is my life's work? What do I do? How do I get there? What will set me up to succeed? Can I as the head of my household, and primary bread-winner AFFORD the luxury of trying to find my life's work? All tough questions.
So I pray...
I look for direction. It may be I"m where I should be. It's definitely better than where I've been. I provide for my wife. I am a good person..with a good head on his shoulders. Strong morals, good friends (both old and new), and an amazing wife. By anyone's standards...I've been a success. Were I to go to my heavenly home tomorrow...my life here hasn't been wasted.
Yet this week I was part of a class where they said you should ENJOY your job...and do what you love because you're going to need to enjoy work to make the most of it. It got me thinking.
This isn't a "I hate my job" blog...or even a directionless blog. I mean I"m in a good gig...with a solid future. If I do nothing and just stay current with technology...I can probably go job to job for the rest of my life...retire at 60 and then just enjoy life. However...there's a part of me that thinks that's a wasted life. I wonder if that is truly what I'm meant to do.
So I pray and I continue to look...which is probably all any of us can do. Just knowing that there may be a change coming is a good start. I can 'prepare my fields for rain'...and start thinking about next steps...if any.
Which is really kinda cool...
Thanks for reading;
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