Back pain SUCKS!

Man I was tired last night. In bed by 10:30 and asleep by 11. I was ZONKED!
I worked late on Tuesday...from 11:30 PM till 2:00 AM...and so didn't sleep much last week either.

Well...last night was another half night.

I woke up at 2:00 and rolled over wrong...when I did that a muscle in my back that had been tweeked the last few months decided to spring. Let me just say...

FREAKING OW!!!!!

So after rolling around like a turtle on his back tryin gto get comfortable I woke up and came downstairs. I laid on the couch for awhile till the pills I took would/could kick in and watched some late night TV. Looking through all the info-mercials, lame movies and news I found a gem...and watched about an hour of "What About Bob?"

I was finding myself thinking though...about my back pain.

Back pain is one of those just awful things. I've known people my whole life who claimed to have back pain and how it bothered them. I gotta say it's one of those "Oh tough it up" moments you can have when you hear repeated issues from someone. Well no more. I've been experiencing it first hand off and on the last 6 months or so.

It's AWFUL. You could be doing something just BASIC and regular like rolling over in bed, or bending over a computer putting in a capture card or removing it...and TWING...welcome to pain land.

Here's the thing...I'm not complaining though.

I'm not a sadist...but I realized last night...that Pain is not always bad.

Obviously something is wrong back there...a pullled muscle, or something worse. This pain is telling me..."Um...you need to stop doing that...or you will not feel anything". It's how we know we're alive. I believe when we die; all pain leaves...and we'll then know we're still existing by the feeling of joy.

In any event...I would like the pain to leave...and it is slowly. I'm hoping that by tonight or tomorrow it will be gone. If you're somoene I know who saw in my eyes a look of "Get over it" in my eyes..I appologize.

If you're a praying person...please pray for me .

Thanks for reading;
Will

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