Summertime blues...I got the cure.

It's been a crazy couple months. SO much has been changing. From the (finally) moving forward with my divorce...to Mom's health...to the job search. It seems like the chaos and uncertainty of the past year is FINALLY starting to melt away...not necessarily in a good way...but certainly in some way which can be refreshing.

See...I'm coming to realize that in a lot of ways...stagnation is even worse for the body than pain and bad things happening. Stagnation can rob one of their sense of purpose...of self. Stagnation allows for the idea that what is happening...it's become your new normal...and you're going to have to learn to live with it. This is a lie from the pit of hell. I don't serve a God of stagnation...I serve a God of movement and redemption. Words that mean ACTION no matter how you slice it.

Divorce, death of a loved one and money issues are LITERALLY like the top three stressors in the world...and I happen to be in the middle of all three. This has resulted at times in me closing up into a little ball and wishing the world to go away. IN some ways I've isolated myself...to try and figure out HOW to deal with everything that has happened and is CONTINUING to happen.

But I've come to realize of late...that's only going to result in keeping me down. Does it suck my wife left??? Yep! Does it suck my Mom has limited time on this Earth...HELL YES!!! Does it suck that I have less than 80 dollars in my bank account right now to get me through till next Friday...yep. Do I have the right to sit and mope and cry about it? Nope.

There is a time for mourning...a time for pain...a time for hurt. However there is also time for dancing, for singing, for finding JOY even in the pain. So my challenge to you today...find joy SOMEWHERE. No matter what you're going through...remember someone has it WORSE than you do (again...I have LITERALLY the top 3 stressors right now...with more on the way I'm sure)...look up to Christ and just say "a little help huh???"...and see what He does.

For me...I'm gonna go back to my 'just above minimum wage' job and finish my shift.

Thanks for Reading.

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