Ramblings, Incoherent Thought and Family

Change... It's as inevitible as taxes, and sometimes just as feared. So far for me 2010 has been about change. Granted I started the ball rolling with the whole weight loss kick I'm on (which has taken a bit of a back seat in recent weeks due to Grammy and now the meeing this week)...but almost since the new year began...I've been dealing with changes. At no time in my life can I remember so many things being so on the cusp of changing. From losing my final (blood) Grandparent...to the big move to a new town...to beginning to feel like I can do MORE...it's a bit disconcerting to be sure. Ok maybe disconcerting isn't the right word...but definitely one of those things that you can see coming and the idea of it causes you to wonder how it's all gonna come out. Ya know...I'm fairly easy-going. Like my father; there isn't terribly much in my life that can 'set me off'. That isn't to say I don't care about anything...but that there's v...

I sit here tonight in my office...surrounded by boxes with most of my stuff from this small room in it...and I find myself feeling the need to write. Gram's gone...and tomorrow we start the process of saying Goodbye. It's not a subject I'm terribly good at. Saying 'see ya later' or 'have a good one'...I'm fine with. The thought that I'll be seeing that person again...intending to at that moment wish the other person farewell...with every intention of picking up where we left off...even if we never see each other for years (if at all)...I'm good at that. I have experience with. One of my best friends in the world (next to Deb) I didn't speak to regularly for almost 10 years...even through email...yet when I saw her two years ago at a college reunion it was like we never were apart. We caught up, and then just continued conversations that were left dormant for 10 years. To this day she and I speak semi-regularly and my wife ADORES her. T...

We've had her for 29 years. I keep finding myself saying that...either audibly or to myself. We've had her for 29 years. It's astounding to think about it...29 years have passed since we lost Grandpa Benson and my Grandmother has been alive without him. She remarried around the 10 year mark...to a great guy (whom I call Grandpa Carl), but she beat the odds. A lot of people say that wives tend to outlive their husbands and if they do they can be VERY productive. That's true in the way I see it around me. My wife's paternal grandmother has lasted a very long time herself...same with Gramma next door (this little italian lady who lived next door to me when we were growing up...we called her grandma next door cause...ya know...she was a Grandma's age and...well...she lived next door.). My Grandmother had an entire lifetime of life without her partner...and that's a true feat. She's sick now. Today they move her back to the home and put her on hospice......