Breathe my friend...just breathe
This week has been NUTS! Chris who usually gives the challenge at the men's group during week 2 was indisposed...so he asked me to go up a week. What I didn't realize is that that means I'm in Week 2 of my month as well. The week that consists of a church leadership meeting on Monday, Tuesday with Deb, Wednesday Business Meeting for work, Thursday Gauntlet/rehearsal and Friday Radio Show. He asked me on Saturday I think...and I said yes without thinking. WHOOPS.
I had TUESDAY to write the challenge. However...sitting down Tuesday I just didn't feel it coming...I started writing but one of my readers felt it may not work...so I scrapped it...so on Wednesday...I figure I'll write during my business meeting.(which is usually done remotely).
Except this week.
Nope...they wanted us on-site. GREEATTTT. It was cool seeing the people I work with locally...but still I planned to stay awake and try to write...and experienced writer's block like you wouldn't believe...which brings me to Thursday (when I'm supposed to GIVE the talk). I figured I may be able to sneak an hour or two to do it midday, send it to my buddy to read and go over...then present it tomorrow night. NOPE!
Wow...a day like yesterday can really take a lot of you. It was a busy day for me. Started at 6 AM I had to go to the colocation and do some work on some servers...now I don't mind that. In fact I kinda dig getting my hands in a server every once in awhile. Working from home I don't really see our servers very much...so having to go in and do some work...I dig it.
I get home and do the morning ritual (shower, shave etc)...and do some work. Then I'm in a morning meeting when one of my end-users apparently gets a virus.
One of my end-users who lives in Missouri. Oye.
I prepare her for me to get in remotely...but then my boss needs to install a cert for a new site RIGHT AWAY...so after my meeting we spend a half hour on that...then I NEED to eat (my Hypo-Glacemia kicking in)...so I finally get to sit down with her online at about 12:30. I spend a good hour on that...then I get done.
THEN at 1:30 I've got to take care of some fires...so I can't sit down to start trying to write till 3:30ish. I go downstairs to get away from the desk and pick up where I left off on my attempt at a talk...and again same block.
OH MAN!
I start thinking about Pastor John and losing his father and how I may not be able to make the calling hours if I can't get this talk done...when it hits me.
I'm speaking of the wrong thing. I'm in the way.
My thoughts change to expressing love for those closest to us before they're gone. To express ourselves the way God has throughout His word...to those in our lives that are nearest and dearest...because we don't have forever.
The words just start flowing. The talk LITERALLY writes itself. Verses, scriptures, examples come flowing to the top. Then the story of the last time I saw my Grandmother alive came up. I think I've blogged on that before...I told the same story. I found myself in tears by the end...and with 2 minutes to spare to get dressed and get to the funeral home to pay my respects to Pastor John and the family.
I get there and meet my bride...we spend about a half hour there just talking to the family and friends...and then decide it's time to go. We go to East Ridge Diner and I'm SOOOO READY for a big burger and fries...but my wife REALLY wants Fries (she can't eat that right now)...so I go for the Pancakes and Eggs..VERY filling...and decent. I leave there and go to the Gauntlet.
I give the talk...and God REALLY worked in it. It ended up different from how I wrote it on the page. I left one area on my notes "Open" meaning I knew God would give me something to say there...and he did. It was probably the most poignant part of the message (dealing with honesty...being men of character...of being totally honest.). It was a really good talk and I felt good about it.
I came home and went to bed early.
The thing about a day like yesterday (and really this week) is that as you're running and gunning...you begin to get USED to the chaos.
I find myself sitting here now...post 'run and gun' and thinking..."what do I need to do today?"
I have a lot of work...but nothing URGENT...I'm gonna do some cleanup on my queues etc...I have radio tonight and need to put the chart together in my Itunes and build the show...and I need to try and get over to see my family tonight maybe as Deb will be gone...but it's all kinda just there.
I feel funny now. My body, senses, and emotions got USED to feeling like I have to go go go...but now I can just slow down...I don't want to stop...but wonder what now needs to be done first. I almost feel like a rudderless boat today...wondering which way to let the wind take me. However...I think what I want to do first...is breathe...
*Inhale*
*Exhale*
Ok...that's done...now on to work.
Thanks for reading;
I had TUESDAY to write the challenge. However...sitting down Tuesday I just didn't feel it coming...I started writing but one of my readers felt it may not work...so I scrapped it...so on Wednesday...I figure I'll write during my business meeting.(which is usually done remotely).
Except this week.
Nope...they wanted us on-site. GREEATTTT. It was cool seeing the people I work with locally...but still I planned to stay awake and try to write...and experienced writer's block like you wouldn't believe...which brings me to Thursday (when I'm supposed to GIVE the talk). I figured I may be able to sneak an hour or two to do it midday, send it to my buddy to read and go over...then present it tomorrow night. NOPE!
Wow...a day like yesterday can really take a lot of you. It was a busy day for me. Started at 6 AM I had to go to the colocation and do some work on some servers...now I don't mind that. In fact I kinda dig getting my hands in a server every once in awhile. Working from home I don't really see our servers very much...so having to go in and do some work...I dig it.
I get home and do the morning ritual (shower, shave etc)...and do some work. Then I'm in a morning meeting when one of my end-users apparently gets a virus.
One of my end-users who lives in Missouri. Oye.
I prepare her for me to get in remotely...but then my boss needs to install a cert for a new site RIGHT AWAY...so after my meeting we spend a half hour on that...then I NEED to eat (my Hypo-Glacemia kicking in)...so I finally get to sit down with her online at about 12:30. I spend a good hour on that...then I get done.
THEN at 1:30 I've got to take care of some fires...so I can't sit down to start trying to write till 3:30ish. I go downstairs to get away from the desk and pick up where I left off on my attempt at a talk...and again same block.
OH MAN!
I start thinking about Pastor John and losing his father and how I may not be able to make the calling hours if I can't get this talk done...when it hits me.
I'm speaking of the wrong thing. I'm in the way.
My thoughts change to expressing love for those closest to us before they're gone. To express ourselves the way God has throughout His word...to those in our lives that are nearest and dearest...because we don't have forever.
The words just start flowing. The talk LITERALLY writes itself. Verses, scriptures, examples come flowing to the top. Then the story of the last time I saw my Grandmother alive came up. I think I've blogged on that before...I told the same story. I found myself in tears by the end...and with 2 minutes to spare to get dressed and get to the funeral home to pay my respects to Pastor John and the family.
I get there and meet my bride...we spend about a half hour there just talking to the family and friends...and then decide it's time to go. We go to East Ridge Diner and I'm SOOOO READY for a big burger and fries...but my wife REALLY wants Fries (she can't eat that right now)...so I go for the Pancakes and Eggs..VERY filling...and decent. I leave there and go to the Gauntlet.
I give the talk...and God REALLY worked in it. It ended up different from how I wrote it on the page. I left one area on my notes "Open" meaning I knew God would give me something to say there...and he did. It was probably the most poignant part of the message (dealing with honesty...being men of character...of being totally honest.). It was a really good talk and I felt good about it.
I came home and went to bed early.
The thing about a day like yesterday (and really this week) is that as you're running and gunning...you begin to get USED to the chaos.
I find myself sitting here now...post 'run and gun' and thinking..."what do I need to do today?"
I have a lot of work...but nothing URGENT...I'm gonna do some cleanup on my queues etc...I have radio tonight and need to put the chart together in my Itunes and build the show...and I need to try and get over to see my family tonight maybe as Deb will be gone...but it's all kinda just there.
I feel funny now. My body, senses, and emotions got USED to feeling like I have to go go go...but now I can just slow down...I don't want to stop...but wonder what now needs to be done first. I almost feel like a rudderless boat today...wondering which way to let the wind take me. However...I think what I want to do first...is breathe...
*Inhale*
*Exhale*
Ok...that's done...now on to work.
Thanks for reading;
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