Ramblings, Incoherent Thought and Family

Ya know...Patch Saturday is kinda like paying bills... It comes once a month Involves taking resources I don't have I don't necessarilly see any REAL return from the investment. I know it's important to patch servers...I mean if we didn't it would go badly. I knew more than one guy who lost his job in the early 00's when Blaster/Netsky hit when Microsoft released that it could have been avoided should they have applied patches. It's leading me to think about the direction of my life. Ya know...I love my job. Computers were something I was always good at but just didn't spend time with till after College when I decided I wasn't going to pursue performing. I fell into it. Became good at it, and really did grow to like it. I like fixing things...making them work. Helping people understand something they didn't. However as time has gone on I've been growing more restless. I'm not saying I'm leaving my job. UU is great. Working from h...

I'm sad today. I found out someone I considered a friend has passed away. I use the word considered because to be honest...I was a friend with her brother and she was always kind to me. In my world back then and even today...that made you a friend. This isn't an Aunt, or Uncle or old friend of the family (though one did die as well this week)...but someone my age. Who graduated High School at the same time I did...was the sister of one of my very best childhood friends. Who always treated this awkward geeky hangabout tag-along kid with kindness and respect. Now she's gone. I haven't spoken to her in at least 15 years. I've reconnected with her brother both virtually and on the phone since 2006 (a yearly 'how ya doin' call or email or facebook)...but to be honest as what happens with childhood friends...we went various ways. I still care for him (and his family)...but as for daily or weekly contact...we eventually just found other people or ways to spend time...

November 11, 1972. A national holiday. William Rodney Benson and Sally L. Short were married in Rochester, NY. A year and 38 days later...young William Rodney Benson Jr. was born. A year and a half later, Betty Lee Benson was born. A family was created...my family. In 1972, we didn't have internet, cell phones were considered 'Star Trek' technology, cars were simple enough to repair yourself, there were 4 stations on the TV and if the president was on...your night was shot. It was a time before the end of the Vietnam war. Divorce was still somewhat taboo, and people read newspapers and watched the nightly news for information. Today I sit in my office in my basement and my parents are in Canada. They left Sunday after service and hopefully are having a great time. I sit here today thinking about my family. I had so many people I grew up with with broken homes. Parents who couldn't relate to each other, who even hated each other. Who fought and couldn't find co...

Ok...I have some pent-up...whatever tonight for some reason. And frankly I'm ready to give my ten things I REALLY hate...especially when I'm up at 2:30 in the morning. 10: Rachel Ray ('Nuff said) 9: Legally Blonde (the movie and the musical and any and all sequels) 8: Bad Drivers who drive at 1:00 AM on Fridays. 7: People on Facebook who say the word Holla...the phrase is dead. Move on. 6: Did I mention Legally Blonde? If so it's worth at least 2 spots. 5: Realizing you left your cell phone in the car when you're on call, and have your shoes off and are sitting in your Boxers watching last week's episode of The Office. 4: Back Pain (See previous blog) 3: Obamaniacs...ok we get it. He won...yea for you. Now sit down and shut up. He'll do good or he'll tank...but for goodness' sake...people seem more excited about this than their own accomplishments in life. I'm glad Bush is out too, and I know Obama will probably do a good job, but the ele...

Man I was tired last night. In bed by 10:30 and asleep by 11. I was ZONKED! I worked late on Tuesday...from 11:30 PM till 2:00 AM...and so didn't sleep much last week either. Well...last night was another half night. I woke up at 2:00 and rolled over wrong...when I did that a muscle in my back that had been tweeked the last few months decided to spring. Let me just say... FREAKING OW!!!!! So after rolling around like a turtle on his back tryin gto get comfortable I woke up and came downstairs. I laid on the couch for awhile till the pills I took would/could kick in and watched some late night TV. Looking through all the info-mercials, lame movies and news I found a gem...and watched about an hour of "What About Bob?" I was finding myself thinking though...about my back pain. Back pain is one of those just awful things. I've known people my whole life who claimed to have back pain and how it bothered them. I gotta say it's one of those "Oh tough it up...

I'm sitting here at my desk at 1:00 AM on November 5. I'm actually working with some of my other SA's...BUT...they're doing most of the work so I find myself just sitting here and thinking about tonight's election...and where I believe it went wrong. I know this will run the risk of offending some really good people I've been blessed to reconnect with...but the fact is I think that Obama wasn't the right call. I think he's a media darling...I think that CNN and the networks and Oprah decided to back someone...and a media hungry country ate it up. All because we bought into the whole "Bush sucks". Problem is...Bush DOES suck. I don't think he's a bad person, and I'm sure he's been through a lot...but he's a weakling. He's been led by his father and father's former playmates to play house at 1600 Pennsylvania Avenue. He wasn't a strong leader, and I'd dare say the worst president we've had in the last...

A lot of people today are telling us to get out and vote. I'm not going to disagree. There are many people in the world who can't vote for their leaders. Or even have the illusion that they are voting for their leaders (something I believe with the Electoral College...we're dangerously close to)...however it's important to vote. Yes...the system is broken. The electoral college was created at a time when the country didn't have anything close to fast communication. It took literally weeks to get a letter across state lines. Messages travelled by 1 horse power. So the Electoral College was created to give local voice to national elections. The local vote would happen...then the college would meet and then decide on the president. Now we live in an age where media is overrunning our lives. If a public figure has a sniffle at 2:05 PM...by 2:30 it's on the news as a possible life-threatening illness. The fact is...by the time we wake up tomorrow we'll kn...