Ramblings, Incoherent Thought and Family

I won't lie...it hasn't been a great year for me. On Monday it was one year (though I actually marked it Saturday as THAT was the day (the Saturday after Thanksgiving)) that Deb sat me down and for the first time told me she was unhappy.  I remember vividly the day...the conversation and the fallout.  It started what I've come to refer to as (hey I do dig Star Trek Voyager) my 'Year of Hell'...the year where I have basically been reset. I'd love to say it's been easy and dandy but it really hasn't. Since I've written last...I've moved into my new apartment...then lost my job...almost restored but then fully lost my marriage, financially tanked and then recently lost my apartment and up and QUIT the job I got two months ago.  I'm now living with my parents in Fairport and working in retail again.  I've reset not to 'pre-Deb' Will...but actually 1998 Will.  It's somewhat surreal for me in a lot of ways. Last Wednesday ...

Thank you for your reading...and support. However at this time I've hid the posts...and have decided to take things a little more private. To say this is the hardest time of my life is not enough.  I didn't know what else to do...so I shared openly and shouted from the rooftops...only I didn't think how that could be misinterpreted and whom it may hurt. So while the posts still exist as a personal chronicle...I've hidden them for now.   I'm sure I'm not CLOSE to through this yet...and I'm sure I'll write more in time...but for now...I'm gonna go dark. Thanks for reading;

Friends...and what it means to have them...   Growing up I found myself ALWAYS obsessed with friendships...making them...and at times...using them for my own amusement.   I remember this one friend...who's name I CAN'T remember.  When we were kids my sister and I would go up to the Wood Library everyday after school.  I forget WHY we did it...but if I remember correctly it had something to do with my Mom working nights and so we'd go there till Dad would drive by and pick us up...and take us home for dinner around 4:00.   One day...we saw that there was a neighbor NEXT DOOR to the library...and he had this KICKING playground set...with a 'treehouse' of sorts and other stuff.  Oh man did I want to play in that...So...I decided "Ok...I need to make friends with this kid so that I can play with his toys and thereby make them (by extension) my own.".  So I went over with my sister and we did make friends with them.  I'll admit I don't think we ...

Sinuses...   Boy sinus pain SUX!  That is all.  

Happy New Year to All! First let me say...that if you're reading this it's probably because you're a friend or family member whom I love and value. If you're not...then frankly it's my hope that after reading the words I've written through this blog the last few years...you may GET to know me...so let me say the following. The person I am today is not a result of any one man, woman or person in my life. You could say it's the result of God...and that is CERTAINLY true...but I'm the whole of the sum of YOUR parts. My whole life has been made up of people...people whom I've loved, wanted to love, or wanted to love me. If you're someone who feels that maybe I'm a jerk, or don't like you or feel that I"m not worth the time...that's fine too. My life is made up of the people I've been blessed to know. I wouldn't change a thing. But change...is what today's entry is about. As most are want to do at this time of y...